Ambrosia is the name of the fictional nation state Billy Fisher dreams of in Keith Waterhouse's Billy Liar. Krozruch sometimes uses it as a description of the place he is typically in, which is not typically a fictional place in the manner of Fisher's reveries, but rather a Semiotic and Epistemic Dwelling so that Britain or Prague or North Wales rarely competes. Ambrosia, then, is either madness or something that looks and feels like what the wise men and the experts describe as enlightenment or creative state of consciousness and which might also be described as 'too loud a solitude' or the 'summit of emptiness'. It would indeed have been described as something by all manner of people in all manner of ages who stand apart from their world and talk to one another as if they were moving around in some verisimilitudinous virtual world like Second Life or another such VR environment so that they are as real to one another as the people who geographically surround them are real to their peers. What is real differs from person to person in all manner of psychologically peculiar or unremarkable ways, with people's realities being constructed of stories and stories of facts absorbed throughout their life no less so, and arguably a great deal more so, because they may never know they are there and the facts of their perceptions are rarely in doubt. But if anyone is to judge if this Ambrosia is madness or thought disorder or not, they must explore it and see it for what it is rather than making judgements about it from the brochure. Still more, they must question the certainties of their own world which is made, they might be surprised, not only by what is clear to their eyes but to their mind, since if most people are more present in the world, in its sense impressions than is krozruch or Billy Liar or Walter Mitty, if most people are more facts than fancy as Dickens had it, they still give shape to those sense impressions with what they believe to be facts. People should act in certain, broadly normal, ways, they think, and what stands outside of this is dysfunctional. Their Britain or Prague or North Wales is made up of the people they speak to every day, made of people who are simply male or simply female, who are successful and entrepreneurial or who are hopeless losers; their Britain or Prague or North Wales is self-evidently whatever it has been said by itself - in the form of a handful of its institutions - to be. There are no daydreams. There are no dreams. There is little in the way of analysis. Which is not to say that either group is wrong in its extremities but merely that each would have to visit the other to be able to compare. It is arguably the case that those who are least present in this manner, are the most present. If David Kelly was "a Walter Mitty character" then it might nevertheless be that he was more aware, more present, more real in his thinking than Tony Blair or any of the security apparatus that took us into war. In 1997, at least one political era ago when Tony Blair was coming to power, krozruch took a name for himself from Charles Dickens' Hard Times, one of the many books that was variously filtered and chosen for him to make up his understanding of the world. He was here emphasizing the importance of Fancy, the world of the imagination, over the predominating Facts. The problem is that people always choose facts for us, and the candidates for facts that present themselves to us when we are permitted or encouraged to make a choice, are filtered many many times over by both the structures that appear to surround us and those that actually do. Anybody who should doubt this might think where Tony Blairs facts got us, where the facts of the culprits of 9/11 made it all so clear, and if they are not sure, they should do something which will in all likelihood be available to them if they find themselves reading this, and get themselves a copy of Edward W. Said's Orientalism which has his truly heartbreaking Preface to the Twenty Fifth Anniversary Edition written in New York in May 2003. Ambrosia is not a political act for krozruch because Ambrosia is not for him volitional. That is, Ambrosia is not, for him, a political act unless we have got to the stage where we have pwned people's minds by their work and environment to such an extent that living, existing is, for the powers that be, an intolerable provocation, a gesture of freedom so instinctive, so joyful, that it could only disrupt others. Nevertheless, Ambrosia could, for others, be a choice. Fortunately, they can visit and, if they decide to settle - for example by grappling with whatever this is in the way that others grappled with Mill on the Floss or Ulysses or The Remembrance of Things Past or Life the User's Manual or The New Yorker in the belief that they might this way learn something about others' experience and have a better, differently close relationship with the world around them.
Krozruch tends to use the term aspsplaining to describe his tendency to go on monologues about his current interests. He tries hard to minimise this tendency, but it is nevertheless the case that some things interest him and other things do not and his manner of conversation, if he is to share anything, will often track his involved internal thought process which is the lion's share of his experience of the world. Asplsplaining is a play on the phrase mansplaining which it may appear to resemble. It is formed from the words "asperger's syndrome" and "explaining". Aspslplaining, he contends, is motivated differently and theough there will certainly be autistic men who do not respect women and their intellectual process, it is important to Krozruch that this is not assumed to be the case from his typically autistic style of communication.
"In multitasking computer operating systems, a daemon (/ˈdiːmən/ or /ˈdeɪmən/) is a computer program that runs as a background process, rather than being under the direct control of an interactive user. Traditionally, the process names of a daemon end with the letter d, for clarification that the process is, in fact, a daemon, and for differentiation between a daemon and a normal computer program. For example, syslogd is the daemon that implements the system logging facility, and sshd is a daemon that serves incoming SSH connections."
Krozruch occasionally uses the term "daemon" to describe processes in his mind, many of which may work over a theme, dilemma, circumstance, or question, over a period of years. Many such daemons compete, throwing up narrative, dialogue, philosophical reflections, and observations into his consciousness that it is clear have been developed unconsciously. These daemons are responsible for most if not all of the planning he makes and are, for the most part, opaque to him in their operation. An example of such a daemon at work might be the development of Call Them Soldiers over many years, the many of the stories of A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man[ic Depressive, Marginálie as a whole, and the essay in Issue Zero, WTF Then Must We Do?
It may be that such enduring daemons, which may be set up by memes, myths, and narrative tropes as well as slogans and headlines, may be analysed in The Pwned Mind which will examine some of the dangers of the use of the techniques of Public Relations, advertising, and their continuation by other means into information operations.
I favour the term "donnée" for certain kinds of story ideas because of its origin, from 'given'. The term describes well my relation to the purest form of ideas as they occur to me (and this phrase in English is also congruent)." (Taken from Radical Transparency.)
The phrase is, it seems, taken from Henry James The Art of Fiction which I cannot remember having read.
For a time, Graham Greene would refer to a category of his novels as 'entertainments'. These were the less serious works, the ones which might have a better chance at a mass market. Later, he would distance himself from this term. Occasionally I use the word half-ironically to conceptualise that ever-elusive style of book which I might be able to write quickly enough to prevent the sprawl I have seen with major works such as The Thaw, Family Fortunes, and Call Them Soldiers. Points Failure, Complicity, and even Mickey Spazz Mickey might be examples here. Typically, though I have sold them to myself in this way, they are serious works born, at least, of emotional turmoil and moral and intellectual grappling of a kind likely to remain foreign to the mass market.
Fork is a software term which means to take an existing software project and change it not so as to improve it in place, but to modify it to suit a different design objective or philosophy. Libre Office is a fork of Open Office. If you want to follow the concept into a conceptual, philosophical, and political rabbit hole (and despair of humankind into the bargain), you could find a few pages on the phrase "bitcoin fork" or even "Ethereum fork", if you don't and/or you haven't yet understood a word, you could think of "to fork" as being approximately synonymous with "to modify".
"Pwn is a leetspeak slang term derived from the verb own, meaning to appropriate or to conquer to gain ownership. The term implies domination or humiliation of a rival, used primarily in the Internet-based video game culture to taunt an opponent who has just been soundly defeated (e.g., "You just got pwned!").
In script kiddie jargon, pwn means to compromise or control, specifically another computer (server or PC), website, gateway device, or application. It is synonymous with one of the definitions of hacking or cracking, including iOS jailbreaking. The Pwnie Awards are awarded by a group of security researchers.
Popularity of the term among teenagers rose in the mid-2000s, with the spread from the Internet written form to use in spoken language.
[...] Because pwn is primarily used in written form, it has no single generally accepted pronunciation: renditions include /oʊn/ OHN, /pwoʊn/ PWOHN, /poʊn/ POHN, /pəˈʔoʊn/ pə-'OHN, /pɔːn/ PAWN, /piˈoʊn/ pee-OHN, and /pwiːn/ PWEEN. Originally, pwn and its variants were pronounced /oʊn/ in the same way as the verb own, the tail of the p being "silent". A notable usage of this pronunciation can be seen in the Internet distributed series Pure Pwnage (pronounced "pure ownage")."
Krozruch uses the term in relation to ideological exploits, weaponised memes, political myth, patriotic history, and powerful narrative tropes used for ideological ends. It forms part of the title of the proposed extended essay, The Pwned Mind.
I use the word reveries to describe the Billy Fisher/Water Mitty fantasies and intrusive daydreams and confrontations that shoehorn their way into my consciousness. Some of these are the basis or jumping-off point for données. These reveries are a significant part of my experience but are difficult to apprehend and describe and so what you see here is a vanishingly small percentage of those that I have lived and experienced. (Take from Radical Transparency.)
References and footnotes
- I do not put up a link because I am assuming if you are reading this, you have contacts at your local independent bookshops, are familiar with your libraries, and have the addresses of any internet retailers you use because you are satisfied that they act ethically and are a service to their community stored in your bookmarks and that, besides, all you may have to do now is write the name into your diary or notebook or todo list or whatever it is you use to ensure that you are creating as many inputs into your life than all of the algorithms that are flingin ideas at you all day every day like a child begging for sweets at the checkout.
- From the Daemon (computing) page on Wikipedia.
- Taken from the Wikipedia page